Thursday, March 31, 2011

Where There's A Will, There's A Wait

Did you ever want something so bad that you could taste it, and someone told you, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way?”  I’ve found that more often the case is that where there’s a will, there’s a wait.

          My husband and I were married in 1993.  If I had had my way, our first child would’ve come in 1994.  The will was there, but, for us, God said, “Wait.”  We went through fertility testing and dozens of pregnancy tests before I heard God tell me to slow down.  My doctor wanted me to take a fertility drug, but neither our insurance nor our pocketbook was willing to foot the bill.  Ultimately, we didn’t sense God’s peace.  So, we waited.  Shortly after our 5th anniversary God blessed us with a beautiful baby girl… no drugs required.  What a miracle!  Looking back, I can see His timing was best.  The Lord used those five years to prepare my husband to be father.  (He had never really been around a baby before.)  And, God lead me to start a balloon business out of our home.  He knew that a new business was going to take a great deal of time and attention that I couldn’t have given had I gotten my way.  No, my business had to be my baby for a time so that when Rebecca did finally come along I could have my dream of working and staying home at the same time.  I learned through the wait that His way was best and that He provides peace in the wait if you just ask.
          I am reminded of Mary and Martha when they sent for Jesus to come heal Lazarus.  They expected he would come right away, but instead, the good Lord made them wait.  Lazarus died in the meantime, but God received far greater glory when Jesus came and resurrected him from the dead.  Everyone witnessed a great lesson that day.  Jesus had the power to raise up that which was dead and give him new life.  He continues to do that today.

          Fast forward to 2011.  I’m in the holding pattern again.  Several years ago, I was given the chance to teach a ladies’ Bible study.  Given my background in Forensics, I was excited about the opportunity to speak, but a bit intimidated by my audience and my topic.  Anyway, I trusted God, prayed, studied, and prayed some more.  In the end, it was an awesome experience to be used by Him, one which got me “hooked.”  A couple of years later I was given the opportunity again and thoroughly enjoyed bringing God’s Word to another group of ladies once a month for a semester.  I began to realize a real passion for presenting His Word and giving encouragement to women through its practical application.  This seemed to fit my spiritual gifting and I could see how God had worked in me to shape me for such a time as this. 

          Here comes the big BUT….

          As often is the case, our ways are not the same as God’s ways and our  plans are not His plans.  (Isaiah 55:9)  In 2009, God orchestrated a move for our family across the country.  I had to leave the church I had been a part of since I first came to know Christ as a teenager.  We left, and I took my passion with me.  We’ve now been in Tennessee for almost two years and although we have found a wonderful new church to call home, the opportunity to speak to women has not yet worked out.  I find myself with all the will in the world but, again, waiting.  I know God has a plan for me, so I am patiently (and sometimes not so patiently) learning to trust that he is preparing me for something good.  I am determined to learn what He has for me along the way.  I don’t want to be like the Israelites in the desert that were so fixed on the destination that they missed the everyday miracles. 
This teacher has become the student once again, and I believe it’s a good thing.  Already I have learned more in the last month sitting at Jesus’ feet than I have probably learned in the past several years.  For me, the daily discoveries have already been worth the wait.

          Are you wanting desperately for something and it seems all you can do is wait?  Never fear.  God has not forgotten you.  He knows there is something better in the wait.  So, look for it.  Don’t miss it.  Just think of Paul, sitting in prison, waiting to get out and preach again.  What did he do?
He made the most of every opportunity by penning the epistles that we treasure so much.  That is what I want to aspire to.  Contentment and doing what God has for me, today, without worrying about what I wish for tomorrow.

Be encouraged…

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Philippians 4:11  ...for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.

Psalm 37:7  Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him.

Isaiah 8:17  I will wait for the LORD, who is hiding his face from the descendants of Jacob.
I will put my trust in him.

Lamentations 3:24-26  I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
   therefore I will wait for him.” The LORD is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.

***This blog is being entered for a chance to get a scholarship to the She Speaks Conference.  This conference  is about women connecting the hearts of women to the heart of our Father God and that your heart is to serve Him and His daughters, as He leads.
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  1. Merilee, for someone who told me once she never reads blogs...this is fantastic. And, totally the message I needed today as I battle discontent. Thank you, thank you. Praying for your next steps as you wait faithfully.

  2. Thank you for the encouragement Debbie. When God told me to do this I said to myself that no one will read it. But who can argue with God... and win?

  3. I read it and it totally encouraged me. I too have been in waiting mode for a while. It's been good for me, but I am confident that God is using me even here. I enjoyed your teaching in the past and I will pray that you are given the desire of your heart soon.

  4. OOOH hitting home with this one. I have promised God that I would serve Him while I waited :) Sometimes so hard to do!

  5. I love this statement:

    "I don’t want to be like the Israelites in the desert that were so fixed on the destination that they missed the everyday miracles."

    This is so find joy in the everyday between now and the manifestation of the envisioned destination. I'm in the middle of waiting for so many things...the call the missions, writing, a husband...I get so easily caught up in the exciting of the 'out there', that I can forget how to be still and enjoy today. Thank you so much for this reminder. :) And best wishes on scholarship! :)

  6. Merilee,
    This is beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. You are such an amazing woman and I love it when I get to see into your soul. This is very insightful and beautifully written! It definitely blessed me! Thank you and I pray you will keep writing!

  7. Found your blog through the suggestion of my friend Debbie. This is a great post and so true. I am also on the speaking and writing journey (went to She Speaks 2009 and 2010!)and God has taught me so much along the way. May He bless you with more of His presence and power as you seek His pleasing and perfect plan for your life.

    Where in TN are you? I'm in Oxford, MS!! About an hour from Memphis!

  8. Thank you Stephanie. I am finding Him more satisfying every day.

    To answer your question, I am near Nashville. I haven't made it to Memphis yet, but if you ever make it this way, look me up.

  9. I just can't resist reading a new blog site from a sister in Christ. So glad I read your's - your words from God were insightful and well written, so as to reach into a person's heart and encourage their soul. I would now encourage you to keep writing, because I believe God is calling you to it! Thank you! And, God bless you Merilee!

  10. Carolee, thank you for your encouragement. How did you know my love language is: words of encouragement?

    I do think I'll keep writing. Actually, God has not stopped giving me ideas since the day I first posted. I'm getting excited. I have about 3 posts that I'm working on. I just want to have a few people look over them before I post the final draft.